These Ain't Easy - For A Fragile Being Like Me

Assalaamu`alaikum & Greetings, meloviedearies!

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Now where should I begin?
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There are so many things going on in my life since the past few weeks. Oh wait. It's been a month already. Oh God, the time just went whoosh!

First thing first; it's always about study, no matter how boring it is. Yeah, I said it. When I say boring, I mean boring with the same pressure, with the same lacking of interests, and so on. Get it? Better do.

Second, co-curricular thingy. I've been super busy with theatre club. We're supposed to perform Salju Hitam (Black Snow) on the 12th and 13th of March for Nusantara Theatre Week (NTW) but it got postponed to next month. However, I have to help my friend directing another play for IIUM Ummatic Week opening ceremony on the 12th March (this event explains why NTW got postponed). Ummatic Week is the one who responsible for all the distress that I've been carrying on my frail mental & physical. At first, I was director. But then, because of my commitments with other things (not to mention some crises with some of the actors), I decided to pull out. Thinking back, it's an international event, where diplomats from all over the world are going to be present and watch the play, with all newbie actors, I can't risk my friend's dignity, my university's, and my country's. The actors'? I don't give a fart about them. LET THEM BE! But that was a week ago. Now, considering everything (especially the star point that I'm going to get), I was willing to take the post of an assistant director; which means less responsibilities.

Enough about that. But no. Another thing suddenly came jumping into my lap. Students Representative Council (SRC) Carnival. They've been doing events in conjunctions with the student election but I don't give a fart about that. There's an event; a Malay theater starring Sabri Yunus, a great performer but I don't get to watch it because of Drama class (which is TONIGHT!). Do you know how hurtful it is to give away TWO tickets of something that you really LOVE for another thing that you just HAVE TO live??? Second thing about SRC Carnival. There's another event on this Friday, involving my music band - De Cheaters. After the Poetry Gig last year, when you talk about De Cheaters, you can't exclude ME in it. And so one of the guitarists (Zhaf - who I assume the leader of the band) FORCED me to join their performance on THIS Friday. And he only let me know it the day before yesterday. When was it? 2 DAYS AGO! It means 3 MORE DAYS TO GO!!! The problem is that, they want me to accompany two songs; one of them is "Penerang Hati" by Sixth Sense featuring Saujana, and another one is a new song, composed by the singer (not in our group). Haish. I told Zhaf that I seriously think that I can't perform those songs but the singer insisted and Zhaf said "OP, whether you want to do it or not, you just HAVE TO do it!" Baboomm!

All these havoc is draining my calcium away(?). Please pray for my survival. Oh, God.

 P/s: Charming Arahmyad Jauhar gave me this!

"Hi! My name is Gebob!"

See how big it is?

"Adorable me!

Thank you, love.